While I was sleeping last night I was having terrible and very real dreams about my husband leaving us. Not about him leaving for two weeks but forever by his own will and not God's. I shared this dream with him in detail today, it wasn't the first time. I've had dreams like these every month or two. I have this underlying fear of being alone. And even worse to be without the one that I love so much.
It is horrible to wake up in fear the way I do after these dreams. And a virtual hug just isn't the same. All I can do is tell my husband about my fear, if only for some reassurance from him. Then I try to remember that I have to turn to God. The One that will never leave me and will always be there in fear and change.
Have I not commanded you?
Be strong and courageous.
Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
So, rather than these verses helping me through a sleepless night, I pray they help me have a peaceful sleep with dreams of the wonderful things to come.
“I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.”