January 6, 2012


I know I have been MIA quite a bit lately. I've felt a bit like I need a padded room and maybe some magic happy pills but I had a long talk with [my wonderful] husband and I am feeling better about it all. I don't have one overwhelming stressor, I have a hundred small ones. I know the first rule of being a mom is to never compare yourself or your children to anyone else but it is hard not to. I have friends with real issues; divorce, children with special needs, deployed husbands, single parenting, cancer. I do realize how truly blessed we are. And sometimes I don't feel like I have any room to complain about things. So, occasionally I have a melt down because I don't have the release of stress. I was ready to sign myself into a nice cooshy funny farm. But my [wonderful] husband reminded me that I need to take some time for myself. I am constantly under stress of some kind from some direction and I was never giving myself a break. Therefore breakdown ensued. I cried, I yelled, I shut down.
I prayed... a lot. And after talking to my [wonderful] hubs I felt so much better. We talked about me getting back to the things I love and having some Emily-time daily. I could take a bubble bath or have some crafting time or reading. Something that allows me to turn off and not have to think. I put on my big girl panties and moved on. The next day I got out my new (I have never painted before) acrylic paint set and painted for about 4 hours while the boys watched Leapfrog and Dinosaur Train. Sometimes we really do need the electronic babysitter. And therapy of some kind, whether you talk to someone or just get those emotions on paper. You'll feel better. Do it.
So this is my first ever painting. If anyone wants to buy it just message me. :)


Rachel said...

Em - I love it! So beautiful! Feel free to email me anytime to vent! :) Maybe I will do the same! :)

My Captivating Images said...

I understand that feeling all to well! Kudo's to the hubs for making sure you take time to yourself. :)

Adrianne said...

I'm glad you are back! Your painting is beautiful! We need to catch up via phone...I've got to get on that international phone plan :-) The people I admire and am inspired by the most are the ones who are real, in their joys AND struggles, the ones who are okay with being transparent! That I can relate to. Love and miss you tons!

mira said...

yup. totally been there...could have written that post myself a few times over! I keep telling myself it's ok to vent and move on, and yet keep forgetting the next time the little things pile up. Kudos to you for actually taking time for yourself again and letting God in to do some healing of his own :)


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