Lord God, I need your help. I cannot do this. I cannot battle my child on everything. Are you trying to teach me patience by first making me nuts? Is this really what I should be doing? Am I on the right path? Right now I feel like I'm off in the ditch. I need wisdom and strength. I am really struggling, Lord. My heart is ugly right now and only you can fix it. Please Lord, fix me. Give me your grace so I can share it. Give me your peace, your patience. I can only do this with you, Lord. Please. Guide me, fill me, teach me, lead me, mold me, use me, walk beside me. I give my life to THE Potter.
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I'm sorry! I don't know what the struggle is, but I will pray for you all! I will say that when I often feel challenged like you sound, it's usually a struggle between Immanuel and I. I just 'remind' God that he gave me these children, Praise Him, but I also need wisdom to teach, love, and grow each one as He created them. I don't want to stifle who He wants them to be, but I also don't want to miss any area I'm supposed to shape and character build. Oh yeah, I also don't want to be insane and decide that pulling my eyelashes out one by one would feel better. :-P P.S. Just this morning I had to tell Immanuel that I needed to walk away from him. If he saw me walking away from him, he needed to give me the chance to breath before we head back into what seems like murky waters! I returned, after twice walking away, said a little prayer, breathed a little deeper, and all was better. Love you, Girl! You are a good Mama!!
you are his mama, and maybe that's all you need to be for a day or two. the teacher part can hold. He will know you LOVE him and love God, and is the rest really critical to his eternal life? no. head knowledge can wait, heart knowledge is waaaaaay more critical.
love you girl, you can do this. And I definitely have days when I am praying those exact words right along with you.
Hugs.
Parenting shakes us down to our very core. Often.
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